i'm sorry to everyone who had to put up with me during this Promos. ): i've been getting very distracted and jittery; especially 1hr before the paper. i dontknow, i'll just feel caffeine overloaded in my blood stream and shiver that kind of feeling. making repeated trips to the toilet and eating very little for lunch, trying to Intensively Cram everything into my mind. in the meanwhile, i'd be mumbling. about not remembering my work, staring blankly at the paper for 2hr15min and eventually getting kicked out.

it's like a Nightmare. i'm Scared. i guess my existence in cj and cj canoeing does hinge on this exams. this promos somehow, have a Great impact on me. i've never felt so stressed about exams and not making it before. ):

when tecksiang was discussing the points for the history qn1 on msn, my heart literally stopped. he said that my Focus was wrong and points were wrong, duh. i thought i screwed up the immigrants qn & now the Natives one too?! got so scared, i dontknow why either. called shermeen up, and she was Damnn comforting! before the paper when i was studying with her too, she was like "dont worrry...dont worry..." haha! so nice. felt very screwed up. ): till Jiawei came online, and her outline was about the same as mine. so yeah, maybe it's not wrong? i dontknow either. ):

for this whole exam, i've Never felt confident for one paper. ):

was thinking, what wld i do if i eventually get to j2? do what in uni? should i go poly? what shld i do in poly?

my parents have been very supportive,
especially my Dad.
been asking if i'm alright and not to be too stressed out;
just do something i'd be happy in. (:
so touched, really. -tears.

ARGH. ):

i dontknow.
goodbye.